date: Sunday, June 27, 2010
title: i dont know what is gonna happen to my cousins
its complicated!! i am gonna speak like American now
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it is shit!, my cousin she is going to become like those hooligans out there, wearing super short pants and a phone that never leaves the fingers.i hate it, its hopeless, no point telling her to change. she is gonna meet the worse someday and smoke like teenage gangsters and have boyfriends and all. no reason. no hope. no point. its all set in her life's road. being a prostitute and going into red light district. she is also gonna follow her mum's foootsteps and be like a madwoman with no future. i am really worried. i know i am like a wierdo talking like as if im her close kin or what, but i am seriously afraid. she is actually adding a weight on my shoulders. if you are my cousin reading this, i know it does no use, i am just expressing my feelings to this blog. so, shut up and stop saying me those fuck shit in ur heart, im mad now. how i wished that communications through this idiot electrical devices were not invented by idiot people. i really hope u will be like last time. try to see what is right and what is wrong. dont follow ur mom. i know she is like ur best mum or should i say friend, but she is really a baddy. she is now a widow. helpless and all, gotta find a life of her own. no need to depend on you and your father already, ITS OVER between them.i really hope that this message brainwashes ur senses and study, a teenagers job is to study while an adults job is what u are doing now. your hair, its seriously ugly. for goodnesses sake, i hate it to the core.ur pants,are u attracting guys or what? let me tell u the truth, u are UGLY. i dont care if u have high self esteem or what, but seriously, yes.im not kidding u. ALL this effort i put in just to write this is like no use. i know, in ur heart, u are treating this as if im talking rubbish and get on messagin your hopeless friend or should i say guyfriend?! you can do that, its ok with me. cos its you what, like u always say. im very sad now, sorry for caring u so much, i hope u could change. but, all my effort has gone to the drain. continue to play and joke with ur friends and get a U grade for everything at the end of the year while others are jumping for joy bcos of their results and only u are crying with that hopeless friend of yours, i am telling u now, get ready :) its your destiny what, what can i do, what i can do, i did. its up to you and ur mindset. it seems like it does not make any difference in ur mindset.
i am seriously very worried for u.i am really very worried for you. pls, i dont wan a cousin like this. i hope i can even break ties you know!
