today is a monday. i did not go for councilor camp, i really wish to be a councilor with alot of leadership qualities.....but i think that i cannot be one already, give alot of contradicting messages, somemore so bad trll them i go for the camp and give money to buy food and beverages and somemore never go for it... i am really done for.i feel so disgusted. aw man. to say the truth i really really want to be one, not for te fun of it but for the position. i know you are laughing at me now like who on earth would one to be a councilor. but thats me, i want it, to help, care and do many things i really really want to be one. hope my studies can help teachers to say that : wahh this pupil although never came for councilor camp but i think that her studies already showed us that she can do it. hope that will be true.i wanna be like nab... sl, councilor welfare one, studies good(i think). haiz can do alot of things.

just came back from penang, it was a very tiresome trip, thinkign alot of my hmk, just cannot go sleep and everything. but then bought alot of things alot of shirt and pants and keychains and small things which takes space. i wonder if shaidah will come tomorrow.